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I got a workout in last night at the gym.  I hadn’t been there in about a week and a half.  I have been doing some cardio at home for the last few days and before that just resting my back up.  I must say I’ve began to hate my routine.  I do 1 hour of walking/running on the treadmill.  I move to the elipticall for 1 hour and then to the bike for a half hour.  The treadmill gets boring after the first 30 min. and if a friend is there they talk to me and I focus on that instead of increasing my speed grrr…. (that is why I don’t like that virtually ALL my friends have joined this gym and only will go when I go!)  the elipticall hurts my feet after awhile and I don’t know why I asked others if their feet hurt and they say no.  The bike just kills my hips by the time I’m halfway through it I get off walking like a cripple almost.  After all that grueling cardio I move to the weight machines and do that for an hour and a half.  I don’t mind doing the weights I don’t know why I mind doing them cause they are so hard to pull and push and all I wanna do is grunt or scream and I can’t cause there’s people there lol.  I’m not complaining or anything it sucks because my gym has absolutly no classes it’s probably the smallest gym anybody has seen haha.  So if I want to do anything different I have to get a DVD which I have some pilates and Biggest Loser ones but there’s not enough room in my apt. to do them.  I guess I just need to vent.  Oh and I’m having trouble getting in all my calories in one day.  I gave myself a 1200 calorie limit and of course during the holidays I was going over by a couple hundred ok whatever.  Now I’m ending dinner at about 700 calories and I wait to hours after I eat then go work out so most nights I get home about 2-3 am and can’t finish eating my calories so what am I supposed to do.  I can only eat so much at dinner… I did get home at 1 am and did eat some hummus and pretzels last night then a pb& j sandwich to finish up my calories but I felt bad eating so late I don’t know if I should be doing that.  It’s not like I turn around and go straight to bed.  I’m A LOT confused as to what to do here?!?!

I’m also happy to see another year come and go.  I’ve made it through another year alive and safe.  Thank the Lord no really you have to thank the Lord for that.  Usually if you were to ask me if my year was good I would say no, but I’d have to say this year was exceptionaly good.  The first half not so bad, but it’s that second half that just turned around and got great!  I started this journey on Sept. 1st and haven’t turned back.  It’s the first time in my life that I’ve stuck to a diet or lifestyle change  and I’m proud of myself for that.  I’ve been looking through my pictures from the past year and I can not believe how much fatter I looked 50 pounds heavier.  When I took the pics I thought I looked good not great, but at least good and looking at them now I’m almost disgusted by them and can’t believe I could live like that for as long as I did.  I’m also glad I’m not one of those people making it a New Years resolution to lose weight cause I’ve been there and done that and it didn’t work.  Sorry to those reading this who are doing that,  it’s just not my thing so please don’t take it personally.  I do wish you all the best and if your serious about it then you won’t have a problem and I can’t wait to hear about your progress.  Alot of my friends who want to lose weight are saying “after the new year” and I just chuckle at them I don’t know why I think it’s funny so I’m sorry :o(

On another note I think I’ve changed my mind.  I’m not going anywhere for NYE.  I’ve been to Times Square and watched the ball drop been there done that.  It really is not as great as it looks on T.V.  if you want to know message me and I’ll tell you all about the horror my friends and I endured.  I got punch drunk wasted last year & I was one NOT HOT mess!!   So this year I want to spend it doing nothing I don’t want to get dressed up or have that temptation of drinking which all my friends are telling me it’s ok for the night I keep telling them no it’s not!

I hope you all have a wonderful and safe New Years!!!  Out with the old in with the new you!  Love you all my fellow buddies see you in 2009!

I have nothing good to blog about, but I don’t want to not blog because it doesn’t feel like my day is complete if I haven’t blogged anything so here it goes…

I started excersising again after 2 weeks straight of doing nothing at all.  All I can say is holy cow I can’t believe I didn’t work out for so long.  My back feels really good though the only thing I notice is that if I stand to long I start to feel it hurting, but other than that I think I needed that time off.  I still watched my caloric intake and wrote everything down in my journal with the exception of christmas day.  I wrote what I ate down, but not serving size or the calories.  I wouldn’t want to know anyways.   I think I did ok with the whole weight gain.  I’m obsessed with weighing myself when I wake up and the day after Christmas it read 181 and I’d been hovering around 180/179 anyways so it’s about a one pound gain maybe two.  I weighed myself today and it said 186 so I think that it was just fluctuating a  lot anyways, I know your body does that.  When I get back to working out regularly I’ll trust my scale a little more and what it says lol.

I did start working out Friday, but opted to not go to the gym instead I played DDR.  I know I already mentioned this in a previous blog, but I woke up Saturday and dragged my sisters butt out of bed to play it again for my workout that day she was very reluctant.  I must say today my calves are killing me.  It feels like the muscles are going to tear right through my skin kind of like the Hulk tears through his clothes yeah like that.  I didn’t get to eat dinner until like 8 pm so I’m waiting a couple hours for it to digest and then I’m contemplating going to the gym.  I’m thinking I’m going to take the night off.  I plan on being at that gym everyday this week anyways.

I tried on my new years eve outfit and oh boy is it revealing.  It’s my friends shirt and I can’t wear a bra with it and with being overweight and  gravity kicking in I don’t think my boobs look right in it.  They’re awfuly saggy lol… I feel like I could use a breast lift you know what I mean.   I may wear it anyways I don’t know I tried it with a bra on and you can see the bra through it since theres a big slit in the stomach/boob area.  I told my friend I was going for the HOTT look not the SLUTTY look.  Well I’m all out so much for not having anything to blog about.

A pic of my outfit…

My reality is that I’m not one of those people that can eat whatever they want,  not workout  and not gain a pound.  My ticker says 178 (I think) but I weighed myself this afternoon and it ways 180.  Hey that’s what I get for not working out for 2 weeks and eating what I wanted on Christmas day.  I’m not mad about it as people have said before, this is for life so it’s not likely I wouldn’t eat the junkfood layed out there that day.  I just need to have more will power… maybe I’ll ask for that for my birthday lol. 

My sister and I worked out last night form midnight till 3 am the first hour was the sports games on the Wii.  They didn’t really feel like they did anything,  no sweating so I’m not going to use that as a workout routine.  The last 2 hours we played DDR (Dance Dance Revolution) it is super fun and you can choose workout mode.  You put in how many calories you want to burn up to 1,000 and then your weight and start dancing your butt off.  I really don’t follow the arrows because I would never burn off as much calories as I wanted to and they go to fast I can’t keep up haha.  Here’s my sister over to my right doing it right (she’s a pro) and here’s me jumping up and down left and right and waving my arms all over.  I asked her if she hates playing with people like me she said no.  Hey you burn ALOT more calories doing it my way :o)

After I showered we tried on all her jeans because I don’t have any and I wear her size now.  Well she only wears American Eagel brand in a size 12 and I swear these size 12’s change sizes.  Some we tried on we had to lay on the bed to zip.  I had to look at the tag and see if they were really a size 12!  They were.  She has like 20 pairs I thought she was shitting them out because they just kept appearing.  It’s just that she put some away in a drawer that used to fit her and now don’t, even though they are a size 12 and she still wears a size 12 crazy weird.  It was fun we were trying to squeeze into some and our belly’s hung over so we were poking at each others fat and lauging and my mom is sitting over there telling us we need to hit the gym more… yup thanks mom lol.  I had fun acting childish last night and I got some goal jeans out of it.  My goal is to fit in the tightest size 12’s we tried on,  I really think they’re a size 6 they’re so tight, but I know they’re not.  Oh and there’s a size 10 American Eagle brand shorts her friend (who’s now a size 4… my dream size) gave her.  I got those baby’s on, but not without having my stomach hang over hardcore and having camel toe cause they’re low rise and I had to pull them so far up to hide some fat.  Those 2 articals of clothing are hanging on my closet door for me to look at everyday. 

Here’s my standing for my DDR workout last night

1539.334 Calories burned

16.531 Miles Jogged

9155 Times Jumping Rope

7.336 Miles Swimming

I can’t believe I “jogged” that many miles and it was in 1 night in my own house or that I ‘jumped rope” that much.  I tell you this game is really fun.  I’m actually off to do it again right now.  Have a great day buddies :o)

The rest of my day turned out to be okay.  The morning started off horrible, it was a lot crazy with the whole fire incident.  It started because the dumb ass was drunk and passed out  with a lit cigarette thanks for almost potentially ruining everybody else’s Christmas you douche bag!  I then almost started a fire blow drying my hair, but that wasn’t my fault it was a faulty socket which is getting fixed today.  I had to get a new blow dryer and I loved mine :o(  I then got a call from my best friend wishing me a Merry Christmas,  I asked her to bring my godson over to open his trillions of gifts Santa left him.  He was supposed to come over Saturday,  but I didn’t want the gifts sitting here any longer, so I’m glad they’re all gone.

Well I went to my Aunt and Uncles for the family Christmas gathering and I absolutely love spending time with my family they’re all just so fun and funny.  The food was amazing I did give myself free range the holidays are over for the year so as long as it was just for today I ate what I wanted kind of in moderation.  They put out different cheese’s from different countries so I tried those they were yummy (smoked Gouda, Brie, and a couple more from France and Italy) I had Perohi’s 3 to be exact.  I of course had mashed potato’s, salad, cranberry relish and a roll.  I only had one helping of them and they were small servings happy at myself for that.  It was the dessert that got me and all that snack food.   I had a slice of apple and pumpkin pie and came home and ate some homeade little turtles.  It was like I was shoveling it all in knowing I wasn’t going to be eating this bad again.  Goofy me I know see that is why I’m glad they are over I got my fill in and I’m satisfied with that.

I loved all of my gifts this year.  I always tell my Father and Stepmother I want money, but this year I gave him a list and most all of it was Fitness oriented.  I asked for a body bugg or Wii & Wii fit board.  Well the body bug was out of stock and when he went to get the Wii  of course that was sold out.  As soon as he asked the sales man if they had any (he told my dad no) an announcement came over the stores PA system saying “this just in shipment of Wii gaming system” what kind of luck is that!! So I got my Wii now I need to by the Fit Board they were still out of them.  I got a pink gym bag and new Workout outfit in pink and black… so cute I’m going to post a pic of me wearing it hehe.  Oh and I asked for a food processor so they got me a Cuisinart one yay!  I want to try and eat more raw foods and make more things, I think that will help me accomplish it.  Oh and Marc Jacobs Daisy parfume oh that sent is to die for lol.  I had a great Christmas the first in years,  I’m just happy it finally over with.  So long and goodnight can’t wait to get on that excersize train tomorrow!

Yup thats right I was awoken to my mother bursting through my door telling me theres a fire in the apartments.  It’s not like I live in a building that is 3 stories high of apt’s.  They are all on the ground floor and are just a long row of 12 of them.  Thank goodness because if they were stacked there’d be damage to more than one  it would be more like all of them.  I guess I can be thankful for that and that it was all the way down at the other end, but I didn’t know if it had spread or not.  It’s really scary knowing you have to get the heck out of a house and I will be truthful I wanted to get the gifts to the other people out of the house… bad I know.  I started grabbing stuff and I just kept thinking of what I wanted to grab and the fact I should just be getting out of there, but I didn’t have enough hands to grab everything I wanted to.  I’m grateful I didn’t have to worry about it after some point of learning it was contained.  I feel for the people who did wake up to that what a horrible way to spend Christmas day.  Oh to top it all off we don’t know how it started so we’re worried to leave my cats here incase it was electrical and as I was blow drying my hair huge sparks shot out of the electrical socket so half my hair is sopping wet and the other half is dry and I’m scared to use anything that has to plugged in except the computer obviously.  So needless to say my Christmas morning has started crappy, but I’m not letting that get me down I’m going to go enjoy a wonderful day with my family.

Merry Christmas  everyone!!!

 I would love everyone’s input :o)

I decided back in early October I was going to chop off my hair when I lost exactly 50 pounds.  I went and got my hair done today and my best friend who is my stylist wanted to do it today.  I wanted to so badly to tell her yes, but I told her not yet because I said  I would do it when I lost 50 and I haven’t.  I’m 3 pounds shy of it.  She told me just do it that I’m so close to it anyways.   Well I feel if I do it, it will be like I’m celebrating prematurely.  Kind of like when you celebrate your birthday 2 days  early you don’t actually turn  another year older that day.  I don’t know if it’s because I’m afraid I wont ever see that 50 pound loss like I’m setting myself up for failure I just want to make it there so badly.  Anywho  I was then thinking I would wait till I lost 75 pounds instead and kind of make it a makeover for me I’ll be different looking (I think) and why not have a hot haircut to go with the hot bod!?  Should I do it next week or wait I made the appointment, but I can call and cancel…

On another note I just got back from making Pirohi’s (pirogies) they are a family holiday tradition and my aunt who is wonderful at making them asked that someone else do it for Christmas.  My father quickly volunteered our family to make them… thanks dad!  I had a blast going over there because I never really see them he lives 30 minutes away and we made some pretty funky looking ones.  I made one look like a butt crack and decided that whoever ate that one would win a prize they get to make them next time!  We got “clever” and put peanut butter in another and decided that was the lucky one… well when we boiled it,  it broke open and it was a mess.  I’m glad to have this holiday tradition.   I didn’t workout tonight though or the last week for that matter.  I’m finding that I have no time with all this Christmas chaos going on.  I can’t wait for Friday because I’m walking into that gym and giving the door a big kiss as I do!

Oh and will it ever STOP SNOWING!!!  Geesho Pete’s I hate the snow.   I call them little flakes of hate,  that when they fall they taunt me by saying my name over and over again.  It took me 50 minutes to get back from what should have been a 20 minute drive.   The roads here in MI are sucky as I’m sure they are everywhere with snow so everybody be careful out there when you’re driving.  Merry Christmas everyone!!!  Have a safe and warm one :o)

I went out and bought the LAST  of my gifts to give.  What A relief it is to be done with shopping.  This is the first year I’ve got my shopping done before Christmas Eve and had them wrapped and sitting under the tree which is what I have to go and do to the ones I just bought.  Usually I’m so poor I have to wait till the night before to shop and I’m always stressing out about money.  Who doesn’t stress about money right.  This year I have a whole new attitude I’m much more pleasant,  my mother even told me that I seemed happier this year compared to the last few years.  I like that and to be honest I started to feel happier the moment the weight started coming off.  I used to be depressed all the time now I’m happy and haven’t felt depressed since who knows when!  Love it…  well my sister and her friend didn’t eat dinner before we left to shop so when they finally chose to tell us this at 11 p.m. they had minimal choices for fast food (yuck!)  well my sister likes Taco Bell so onward we went.  Man that smell covered the whole car and smelled kinda yummy.   I wouldn’t touch it with a ten foot pole, but I like the smell of Mexican food (well all food really) oh and so here my mother is as I write this just getting home with McDonald’s oh my GOSH French fries are my weekness when it comes to non sweet foods.  I even gave them up for lent one year and ended up cheating once then too.  Damn her and those fries.

Two nights ago I was just getting ready for bed.  I sat at the edge of my bed getting ready to crawl into it ready for the coziness and warmth of it, but I just sat there aimlessly staring at my t.v.  that was on.  I was about to shut it off,  I hadn’t been watching it, but I did  catch that there were some recent drug addicts that were celebrating there sobriety on it.  I just sat there thinking “That is me, but with food” I have an addiction to food I need to break.  It’s hard because you must eat food to live,  so it’s different for those of us with food addictions.  This was moving for me a tear ran down my face then a few more followed.  It was then I actually told myself “I can do this,  I am above this, I am in control, I deserve this” all through my tears.  I’ve never told myself these words and believed them.  Yeah I’ve said “I can do this” before, but it wasn’t from deep inside me.  I actually meant it, it took all my strength to tell myself those four words and all the rest that followed.  We CAN do this,  We are above this, We are in control.  Most importantly WE deserve this!

I had a family christmas party tonight I did very well with eating a shake for breakfast and lunch and an orange and a banana for my snacks before heading to this shindig.  I prepared some tofu spagetti with marinara and brocolli to take with me for my dinner so I knew exactley what I would be shoving into my pie hole.  I also made a spinach salad and a low calorie dessert so I wouldn’t be tempted with the desserts there.  I was really proud of myself.  When it came to dinner I ate part of mine not all, but I couldn’t resist the cheese potatoes or the green bean cassarole.  So I took some and ate it allllll.  Not to mention the dessert table oh boy I ate a couple bites of mine but had to have some of almost each of the desserts man oh man were they DELICIOUS!!!  I do not regret eating any of it in the least bit.  The only thing is my stomach was so stuffed I had a bit to much hahaha.  I’m not one of those people that can have a bite and be okay with that I have to have piece of it and that I did.  I figure I’ve lost a bit of weight I could have some I shouldn’t reward myself with food and I don’t want to get in the habit of that, but I only see this food once a year.  One party down Christmas day to go and I think I will be better because I spend it with my fathers side of the family and they eat like birds so I do the same so I don’t look like a piggy :o)  I told my mother tonight I ate better on Thanksgiving than I did tonight.  Well I’m of to sleep in my sugar induced coma for a couple days. 

 The Hungry Girl cookbook.  I give thanks to Amy C. from the Biggest Loser… I was visiting her Myspace page and she talked about how she was obsessed with it and now I am too!!  It is a great book for people who are on a  low calorie,  low fat diet and it even shows the weight watchers points for each recipe.  I visit the Hungry Girl website daily to find something for dinner to cook ever since discovering it and everything tastes great that I’ve made so far.   There’s even breakfast,  lunch,  appetizers and DESSERT MMmm… This is what I had for dinner tonight it was delicious.

www.hungrygirl.com

HG’s Chili-rific Cheeseburger   Chili Cheese, Please!     You want a guilt-free chili cheeseburger? You got it, baby!   Ingredients: 1 small hamburger bun (light, if available) 1 Boca Meatless Burger, Original 1 slice fat-free American cheese 2 tbsp. low-fat veggie chili (like one by Boca, Amy’s or Health Valley) 4 pickle slices/chips 2 tomato slices 1 onion slice 1 tbsp. mustard Directions: Split bun in half and toast lightly. Layer pickles, tomato, and onion on the bottom half of the bun. Cook Boca patty according to the instructions on the box (either in a pan with nonstick spray, or in the microwave). Place burger over the veggies on the bun’s bottom half. Prepare chili according to package directions. Top the burger with the chili and then the cheese slice. Slap the mustard onto the top half of the bun. Plop the bun top over the cheese and chili patty. Now, the most important step of all… Enjoy! MAKES 1 SERVING     Serving Size: 1 burger (entire recipe) Calories: 273 Fat: 3g Sodium: 1,330mg Carbs: 40g Fiber: 8g Sugars: 8g Protein: 25g   POINTS® value 5* Attention Sodium-Counters! Save about 450mg by nixing the pickles and mustard.

Carl’s Jr. Chili Cheese Burger     Chubby Cheeseburger     While a cheeseburger smothered with chili is something crave-worthy, it’s certainly not worth the insane nearly 800-calorie price tag that comes along with this one from Carl’s Jr. FYI, if you accidentally order the Double Chili Cheese Burger (OOOPS!), prepare to swallow 1,050 calories and 61g fat (POINTS® value 25*). AHHHHHHH! If you were to splurge on The Chili Cheese Six Dollar Burger, you’d be lookin’ at 1,110 calories and 70g fat (POINTS® value 27*)! That’s just plain RIDICULOUS (a little scary, too). And considering a tagline for this sloppy mess of a burger is “Drip Happens”, wouldn’t you rather enjoy one in the privacy of your own home? Especially when it’s almost too easy to throw together our super-duper guilt-free swap — HG’s Chili-rific Cheeseburger! (And cheeseburger should be one word, not two. Just sayin…)     Serving Size: 1 burger (single) Calories: 790 Fat: 41g Sodium: 960mg Carbs: 59g Fiber: 4g Sugars: 10g Protein: 41g   POINTS® value 18*