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So I decided since I had the day off from work again that I would try to figure out the cause of my *AHEM* problem.  I decided to give up all dairy for the day which would only be the yogurt I eat for breakfast.  That was hard I love waking up to eat my normal & yogurt breakfast it’s so yummy and so so filling.  I also switched up what I ate and when I ate it.  I woke up and ate my usual orange, but also added a banana with that.  I waited a bit for it to start to digest and then ate 2 packets of weight control oatmeal (I do usually only eat 1) I added my usual steamed apple to that and called it good.  So obviously the fruit did not cause me a problem, but once I got to the oatmeal I started feeling it.  I think my problem is simply the fiber.  I must eat to much of it and even though I’ve been eating the same things for weeks on end my body hasn’t adjusted to it so I’m going to try to bring it down a notch.  I don’t know how well that will go I’ll see I guess.

This weather makes me super lazy and not want to do anything.  Yesterday I went through my pictures and filled all my empty frames and added to some photo’s to my albums.  If you came for a visit and went into my bedroom all you’d see are pictures I have over 200 of them on display lol.   As much as I love technology I also love the real thing (pictures.)  I love taking pictures and I love the dark room… I only wish when my dad asked me if I wanted a darkroom built I would have said yes!  but I didn’t stupid me.   Oh sorry got off topic so after that I was informed I had to give my support to my aunts husband who’s father died.  So I went to the funeral home for a couple hours.   That was my only outing for the day and therefor any type of cardio I got in.  Today I’m updating my iPod downloading cd’s that have been sitting next to the computer for a year and hoping to find some good stuff to workout to.

I’ve also been experimenting with not counting my calories… I mean I am still diligently weighing and measuring then logging the amount on paper but I haven’t been adding it up at the end of the day to see what my total was.  I just needed a break from it and well I don’t want to go totally crazy and not measure or weigh so this is the best way I could find to give myself a break.  I like it, but it’s not really for me not when you have a lot of weight to lose.  I have this Body Bugg and I feel like I bought it for no reason.  I mean I LOVE it and I’m  glad I bought it, but I havent logged anything on it for almost a week.  Like I’ve said before it’s been really hard for me to get computer time and when I did it would go to loggin all the info into the Bugg then I’d have to get off.  This is the most time I’ve gotten on here for weeks and I’m finally getting to spend time with my buddy’s instead of the Bugg program.  I’ll get back to logging my food onto the sight,  gosh I haven’t even loaded my calories burned since monday I need to get back to it.   ok I got more to download and a cat who wants to cuddle with me… seriously she’s a very needy cat.

Tuesdays are my day off every week I get a couple other days off but never know when those will be.  So I know when Tues. rolls around I have to workout all day.  And when I say all day,  I mean ALL day or I won’t burn the amount of calories needed by the end of the day.  With that said I didn’t wake up until 11 a.m. my alarm was set for 7:30 am (which is later than normal) that’s a long snooze set lol…  I’m bummed I slept that late I do hate tit because I waste half of the day sleeping and I actually do like getting up early, but then again it feels nice to get to do something “naughty” and off schedule.  Well I didn’t eat breakfast until noon so I’m giving it time before I go to the gym oh I’m starting to loathe the gym… I went and ran the treadmill for a half hour yesterday meaning to go for a full hour,  I just didn’t have time I had to go home and get ready for work.   I think I’m not liking the gym as much because when I started going there it was always usually empty because it had opened a couple months before I joined and now after the new year it always packed full and it’s hard get the machines I want to use because they only have a couple of each version kind of sucks.

Oh and I’m going to put this out there I’m so sick of being gassy!!!  I never new eating so healthy would make you so gassy and it actually is starting to irritate me and well frankly my family, my poor, poor family.  I hate it so much cause for one I always either have to burp or fart and I’m always bloated and my stomach hurts sometimes.  Some days I can’t even fit into my pants because I’m so bloated and gassy.  That is the part that angers me the most.  I thought maybe I was lactose intolerant because it runs on my fathers side of the family, but I actually do not eat a lot of dairy.  I’ve switched to soymilk that is lactose free and tofu/soy cheese that is also lactose free.  The only thing dairy is my yogurt I eat everyday for breakfast.  It’s all the stupid fiber,  I eat twice the amount I’m supposed to in one day everyday lol guess they shouldn’t make it taste so good.  I’m going to try to eliminate some fiber from my diet and see if that helps.  I eat bread that has a lot of fiber and I eat about 4 slices everyday.  So when I make my sandwich’s I’m wrapping them in lettuce instead.  I did this last night my veggie chicken patty tasted great it was so yummy :o)   Oh I bought Gas X in bulk last night at Sam’s Club (I just bought it a little over a month ago and I’ve already ran out!!)  and even that doesn’t really help.  I always end up taking more than the recommended amount in one day every single day.

I have another problem and I actually think I need to see a doctor for it, but I was wondering if anybody else noticed or had this problem…  I’m always cold now that I’ve lost this weight.  Actually I remember when I’d go to work I’d always be very hot and have to pull my long hair up in a ponytail (which I hated to do that’s how hot I’d get)  and in the summer I’d be sweating even if I was just standing there still and not really moving alot,  so that was before I lost this weight and yes of course I’d get really hot I had a ton of fat covering my body.  Now fast forward 56 lbs lighter and I’m always always cold even on the one warmer day we had it was 69degrees (I think)… I wore as many clothes as I would in the dead of winter.  I had to work that day I remember and I wore my usual long sleeve undershirt (long johns) my polo which is my uniform which is short sleeve and a sweatshirt over that and I was still freezing cold and I was moving around a lot.  My customers even comment on how cold my fingers and hands are when I give them their change! && that’s actually the worst my fingers they get so cold it gets hard to move them and grab the change.  I’ve noticed I get this cold when I leave my house, but that’s because the heat is turned up to 80 in my apt & I still get cold there just not numbingly cold.  So when I’m at work or the gym or out and about I get super cold and I’m wearing what feels like 10 layers of clothes lol.  Anybody else have this problem or know what it could be I really don’t want to be wearing my winter coat in the dead of summer.  I had a customer come in and tell me there is some health problem (with some weird name) she has,  her fingers and feet get cold and turn white or blue so she saw a doc and he gave her medicine and she says it helps.  I just wish I could remember the name of it so I could google it.  Well I think I’ve blogged about all I could for one day… I think it’s actually make up for not blogging for a few days lol it got kind of long

I wish it would start warming up here so I can do most everything outside instead.  I love that there’s no snow, but the sun is hiding and it’s windy :o(

I’m braving the crazy mass of people and going to a Twilight release party tonight.  My sister is going to one and I’m going to another.  Really I’m only going to get a spot in line to buy the movie she’s going for the actual party.  I had to ask someone to go with me so I didn’t have to wait in line for a half hour by myself  looking like a complete loser.  I sent out a mass email through myspace asking for someone to come look like a loser with me and got one response… my cousin the sabotager, but whatever he’s someone to talk to and we have some great convo’s so I’m cool with it.  I’m so excited I’ve been waiting to see this movie since I didn’t see it in theature’s.

I went bridesmaid dress shopping today :o[  I thought I’d enjoy it I was the only girl out of the whole party who couldn’t find a dress.  I was super bummed.  All the other girls could find dresses their size and found great cuts for themselves I couldn’t find not a damn thing.  I was very iritated by the 3rd boutique we went to.  I could squeeze my bottom half into a size 10, but no matter the size of the dress I couldn’t zip them up!  I went as high as a size 14 and could only get the zippers half way up and once it started hitting the higher back/bust area, nope, naddo, nothing, poopy… hahaha what a joke!  I don’t even want to continue looking anymore.

Doing great on the eating slacking on the workouts somedays I’m reved up to go usually those are the days I work and really don’t need to workout as hard and other days I’m exhausted and those are usually the days off from work when I NEED to workout for 4 hours so I burn enough calories.  Why… Why must my body and brain be that cruel lol.  I did go do a half hour on the elliptical one day when I was dead tired hoping it would give me energy nope made me even more tired.  Whatever I’m over it just got to bust ass and keep looking at that goal shoot at least that damn mini-goal for goodness sakes.  I think I should have set it a little more realistic like every 10 pounds not 75 pounds!

KK got to go to the party now I can’t wait to get home and watch this movie!!  I bought sugar free calorie free caramel flavored coffee syrup  and bought chocolate decaf coffee to drink while my sister and I watch it :o]   Is anybody else as excited to watch this as I am?!   I probably won’t be going to bed until 4 am teehee :p

but I’m on here blogging because I never get to anymore.  I’m very tired today and today is supposed to be a day where I need to get an ass kicking workout in.  Yesterday I worked 7 hours so I only did a 2 mile walk and an hour and a half on my Wii Fit knowing I didn’t need to workout too hard because I’d burn enough calories at work.  Today I only work for 4 hours so I need to get in a great workout, but even after my humongus breakfast I’m tired I can barely keep my eyes open.  I just want to go sleep in my bed, but there’s just not enough hours in the day to get everything done if I do.  That’s another thing I’m having trouble with is having time to do everything I need to get done.  Between work and working out then prepairing foods I don’t have time for anything else it’s like ym days are a never ending cycle.  I am for once taking care of myself, but I’m not taking care of myself does that make sense lol let me explain…  I’m working on ym health which is more important to me than anything else, but I’m letting everything else on me go and everything else about me go.  I haven’t been to school in 2 years I want to go back to be a CNA, but I’m afraid that between that and work I won’t have time to workout like I like to.  I want to go tanning (I know it’s not necassary) I look like casper when I don’t there’s no time.  I need to give myself a pedi, but you guessed it right I have no time so.  Oh and I also need to get my hair dyed and cut again I’m looking like a mess…. my roots are showing, my hair is uneven and my paint is chipping and I look like I’m among the unliving.  So please tell me where can I buy TIME at if there’s a store that sells it I’d be very happy :o]

On another note I’m doing more bridesmaid dress shopping tomorrow… Oh joy :/  This time with all the bridesmaids lovely…

Oh and I have a couple questions…  They say that drinking green tee and eating cinnamon raises your metabolism but I wear this body bugg and I don’t see my calories burned per minute go up.  Is that not what they mean by that.  I mean if it makes your metabolism faster shouldn’t your calories burned per minute go up slightly??

Gosh I’m excited to be back and amongst the living and my friends again!  I felt horrible all week hence why I haven’t logged on in a week.  I feel great now that I’ve got to rest and recoup.  I don’t know what exactly was wrong with me all I know is that my WHOLE entire body ached, I had a migraine (in the beginning) and I was very weak and dizzy.  I think all that was my body telling me I was working to hard and I was exhausted that and I was getting a cold wasn’t a good combination.  So I decided to sleep a lot and do nothing unless I had to work which it’s very hard for me to call into so I just couldn’t.  As much as I needed to rest I hate sitting in a house all day so a couple days ago I went to the mall to get some walking in.  Today I’m getting outside to get some of my workout in.  I need to get back into the swing of things as far as workouts go I gave myself a week off I did do a ton of walking around when I went to the mall I blogged about before I got sick and at work I’m always on my feet moving so I guess you could say I got cardio in but very low intensity nothing to help me lose weight.   I watched a my friends 1 yr. old niece yesterday afternoon and went for a 2 hour walk with her.  My city has this bike trail that is miles long and it goes through the city through the city park and down and around the outskirts of the city and most of it is through the woods so its very scenic so it was a nice walk.  She got very excited by all the people and their dogs it was too cute.  I think I’ll go for another walk like that with my sister today when she gets out of school at 2:30.  I love that the weather is finally getting a little nicer.  Oh and I bought aWii Fit FIANLLY but I unsync’d my remote controllers and it won’t let me resync them so I haevn’t got to use it yet :o(

Ok when I get some time hopefully tonight I’m going to catch up on blogs because I missed everyone…. I hope I don’t get sick again for a long long time.

I feel like a freight train has ran over me about a million times.  So heres the deal I haven’t been on here since I don’t know I’m guessing Friday.  I went and seen the movie Watchmen in an IMAX theater the screen is 3x bigger than normal screens so I did not fall asleep and the movie was so very good.  I don’t follow comics and had no idea what it was about, but I understood it all so that was a plus.  Ok so Saturday was my day off from work so I planned on working out a lot, to keep moving at least.   I only did a little bit of cardio on Friday (since I worked I knew I would burn enough calories) and did no weights prepairing for sat. well my friend asked me to come over at night for games and socializing I said yes so I knew I would have to work out in the morning on sat.  well she then asked if I wanted to go to the mall s a bunch of us went to this huge mall and did some major shopping (I was doing my part to stimulate the economy lol) so I didn’t get this major workout in as planned just a TON of walking for hours.  I woke up today which is Sunday with only 4 1/2 hours of sleep (stupid time change) for work.  I feel like I drank and have a hangover, but I did no drinking and here it is 10:30 pm and I still have a headache.  My boss even let me leave an hour into my shift so I came home at 11:30 am and fell asleep intil 4:30 pm and feel like I could sleep for days.  So thats what I planned to do.  My bodyaches, my head is KILLING me, and I’m so exhausted.  I find when I just lock myself in my room and stay in bed all day I get better a lot faster.  I can tell I’m sick not just by the symptoms, but I get cranky and whiney and I’m so cranky and I just want to cry for no reason.  Today has been a bad day in general so that’s probably why I want to cry… I woke up feeling horrible, I got to work late, I burned my mothers and sisters dinner and in the process of taking it out of the oven I burned the top of my hand.  I’m going to go lie in my bed and color, watch movies and fall alseep.  So with that I will more than likey not be on here for a few days for I’ll be to busy feeling like complete sh!t.  I don’t have a laptop or I would just lay in bed and surf the net all day, so instead I’ll color.  I hope I get better soon and I hope that for everyone that was sick and still are sick I’ll be hoping we all get better SOON!  Ok buddies I’ll miss you I hope to see your “faces” in a couple days at least!

I have realized there are not enough hours in the day for my life. I started getting up at 6:30 am every morning to start my day off right. I get up it takes me a half hour to get my butt motivated and ready to do my 2 mile jog or walk whatever I’m in the mood for that day then I eat my humassive breakfast then I settle and go to the gym or workout to dvds then its usually time for work. By the time I get home from work at night its time to prepair all my food for the following day then get my butt to bed to wake up at the buttcrack of dawn. See no time to do anything fun anymore *mumbles* stupid Body Bugg making me more motivated and workingharder/longer grr… hahaha okay okay so I’ve decided I’ll get on here everyother day and blog and read blogs. I don’t have that interesting of a life anyways so there hasn’t been much to blog about lately, but I thoroughly enjoy reading your blogs so it bums me I’ll be a day late when I read them.

The only thing going on different in my life is that I’m looking into going to school to be a CNA just to get a better job for now so in the fall I can go back to school for photography. It’s a 6 week program and theres actually places that need CNA’s so I think it’s a smart move on my behalf. I get paid great at my current job, but of course the hours suck. I’m fortunate to work at a grocery store becuase no matter what people have to eat to live. Well it’s only 8:30 am and I’m already tired I think I’m going to take a 20 min. nap then go to the gym. I work until 9:45 then I’m going to go see Watchmen at an IMAX theatre oh joy it’s a 3 hour movie and I woke up so early I don’t think I’ll make it through all of the movie and I always fall asleep in movie theatres so I have that going against me too :o( HAHAHAHA. I guess I’ll consume a lot of coffee before I go.

Wow I haven’t been able to get on the internet in so long.  I feel like I was going through withdrawls.  No worries I did not fall off the diet wagon nor did I go off on some major binges.  My computer was sick (that’s what I call it) and needed some tlc.  Still needs some more tlc, but it’s working for now.  I got up this morning at 6:30 a.m. I sure am getting better at waking in the morning.  Still doing the 2 mile walk and jogs one before breakfast and whatever one I didn’t do, I do after breakfast.  Yesterday was my day off from work I always get tuesdays off.  I know that I have to do some major working out those days because I won’t burn hardley anything if I don’t.  Well I couldn’t get myself out of bed until 8:30 am and even then I was still very tired even when I went to bed at midnight.  Anyways I couldn’t get myself to do the jog before breakfast because not only did I feel tired I felt weak.  So I decided to eat and thought that would give me energy, but that didn’t help one bit and to top it off I was feeling hungry the WHOLE day.  I ate healthy, but no matter what I ate I still couldn’t get that feeling out of me it was really p*ssing me off lol.  I took a lot of naps yesterday telling myself to just throw in the towel “give it up” I wasn’t going to workout, but finally I dragged myself out of bed and did a 2 mile jog w/Leslie Sansone and a high intensity cardio workout w/Bob Harper and then some yoga with some Rachel girl or something like that haha.  So I did an hour of working out at around 4 p.m. even during the workouts I felt weak like I couldn’t do everything they were doing and I couldn’t actually,  I know I didn’t give it %100, but I’m happy I did something.  I did go grocery shopping so that helped me burn more than just sitting around and by the end of the night I was just 10 calories away from my target grr…..

 Today is a new day and I’m awake and got my 2 mile walk in, I ate and now I’m going to do my 2 mile jog then I’m heading to the gym (hopefully) if not the gym then an hour with Bob Harper and Jillian Micheals will do me in for sure BAHAHA.  I think I was so tired because I had worked out pretty hard core for a week straight and it had caught up to me or I could be wrong it could have been something else.  Ok I have to work tonight then when I get home I’m going to try to catch up on blogs, if I can pry the computer from all the lazy people I live with.