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I thought I’d stop and write a quick blog cause I have to go to work.  Last night I had my godson stay the night.  His mom kicked his father out of the house (hopefully for good) he’s nothing but a pot smoking loser who doesn’t have a job and just lives off of her,  so she needed someone to take him over night cause she had to work at 7 am yesterday.  He is such a crazy kid like literally crazy with ADHD he is the most hyper kid I know.  He came over Friday night and emptied his book bag of clothes, toys and his “breakfast” which I laughed at.  So in this ziploc bag he hands me and tells me “this is my breakfast for tomorrow” I look in it and there is a Hostess cupcake, 2 chocolate easter egg candies, a sucker and some crackers and cheese oh nad some other misc. chocolate cany.  I looked at him and laughed.  I told him he gets oatmeal and yogurt and some type of fruit for breakfast and that was it.  So he asked if he could have something out of his bag after he eats breakfast I laughed at him again and said “no I don’t feed crap to kids” he’s 6 yrs old and was kind of bummed, but he got over it in 2 seconds and went off and played with his toys thanks to ADHD lol.  You see if I’m going to eat healthier then I’m going to feed the willing people around me healthier food.  Now if I want to eath that crap (which I don’t) then so be it, I understand what it will do to my body, but I’m not going to feed an inocent child this crap called food when he has no understading what it is doing to him.  I think company’s who make this junk food should be able to be sued better yet just be out of business.  ok got to run and get ready for work.

So just to clear a few things up I eat 1,200 calories a day because currently the only “workout” I get is simply from working.  I can burn enough calories doing that to create a very good deficit therefor I still can loose weight.  I realized I didn’t mention that in my last blog and I don’t want people being concerned with me not eating enough and starving lol… the lord knows I’m certainly not starving myself.  I haven’t been working out because when I do cardio my hips hurt very bad.  I don’t know what it is, but when I get on that treadmill no matter what speed or incline I’m at my hips just ache the left side especially.  I was on Accutane for about 18 months off and on and never realized one of the questions they asked was if my joints hurt and then one day I really listened to her asking them and thought in my head “actually yes my hips hurt.”  I never told them this because they hurt before I had even started taking the medicine, but I never “listened” or payed attention to my body.  When I’m sitting down and go to get up my hips don’t want to straighten up so I immediately hunch over and have to sit back down and try again,  it’s like I’m a geriatric.  I also have this pain that feels like a nerve in my lower back going into my leg that when I’m sitting like now for instance it’s constantly pinching.  So just sitting here and writing this has me in a bit of pain.  I guess that’s good for me cause I’d rather stand than sit between this nerve and my geriatric hips lol.  So that is the reason I’ve been “slacking off” with my workouts.  I feel like I’m cheating myself by not doing anything, but I just want it to go away and I don’t want to make it worse.  I just sit here and stare at my belly not getting any smaller and thinking “why do I have to have the body of a 150 year old!?” Hahaha.

Ok enough of the pitty party for me.  I have to do some laundry I have a bonfire to go to tomorrow night.  I’m meeting up with a guy I’ve been talking to ;P   It’s supposed to be nice out tomorrow too yay!

Yes at exactly 5 am I woke up out of a dead sleep with pains.  It was on both sides of my lower side.  I got up an used the bathroom to eliminate the fact that it wasn’t my kidneys and all the water I drank.  I went and layed back down wide awake for an hour and a half while it remained there and finally fell back alseep.   I woke up at 11 am and felt fine so that was kind of weird for me.  I was so mad when I woke up at 5 because I had my alarm set for 7 am and whenever I wakeup before my alarm goes off I know that I will not wake up for it after I get back to sleep.  Which I didn’t as you can read I didn’t wake until 11 GRRRRR!!!   I have been diligently sticking to a 1,200 calorie food intake and drinking more than a gallon of water and taking my vitamins and I’ve been so tired lately.  I used to be able to wakeup at 6:30am every morning ready to jog to my Leslie Sansone then go eat and play on here for a bit and go do my workout.  Now all I want to do is sleep in late (and I do) eat, play on here then maybe do a workout.  I went to the gym yesterday got on the eliptical for a half hour then got on the treadmil for 40 min.  and the second I started that treadmil my left hip hurt so bad.  I don’t know what it is, but it hurt all day after that walking on it hurt, but I could do it and I could fake like nothing is wrong with it too.  It feels like it’s tight or stiff and I do a lot of lower body stretching before my workouts so I don’t know what it is.  I’m going to the gym for and hour again today then I’ll come home get on my Wii fit and do some yoga I’m hoping that will stretch it out.  Oh and I have got to get my tan on too :]  Then I’m going to work for the night.

I have my computer back!!!  I’ve been going through buddyslim withdrawls over here.  My uncle (thank god for him) does all the work on my computer, car, you name it he does it and I’m so thankful for that it saves a lot of money.  So the diagnoses is… I have no clue it was just being so slow it wouldn’t load any pages so he cleaned it up for me :]

I went to my “nieces” 1st birthday party I showed up late kind of on purpose partly cause I wasn’t ready, but only cause I wanted to be late and the reason for that was to miss the food part of the party.  I just wanted to make it easier on me to say no cause when there’s no food it’s not hard not to eat lol.  When it came to the cake and ice cream I skipped the cake and opted for the superman ice cream.  I had about a half a cup of it not sure on the calories, but it was my higher calorie day anyways.  I came home and ate a Betty Crocker mini delights cake for A LOT less calories and I was very satisfied with that.  I’ve been doing very well with staying at 1,200 calories each day the only thing that I’m having a hard time with is going to the gym or doing any other type of workout for that matter.  The only cardio I’ve been getting in is from working.  I still seem to be making my deficit of -1,000 so it works for me.  I know that if I got back to my 3-4 hour workouts at the gym everyday I would be losing even more.  I’m down to 171 lbs so I’m happy for now, as long as I keep losing :]

My sister and I weighed our cats yesterday and today.  Yesterday they weighed 12.7 lbs and the other was 8.1lbs.  Today they weighed 11.2 lbs and the little one was 7.2 lbs.  See even cats weights flucuate lol.

I’m still tired today it’s like I haven’t gotten enough sleep, but I’ve had more than enough like 9 hours enough lol.

So today was weigh in day for the Wildcats and I feel like I’m actually contributing to the team as far as weight loss goes.  I had been just maintaining then gaining and I’ve turned that right around.  I decided last Friday that I would get on my Wii Fit everyday and weigh myself and get my butt back in gear.  I weighed in on the 10th at 180lbs wowzers!  Everyday since that weigh in I have lost weight and am now down to 172.8lbs so basically 173lbs.  I’m so happy for myself and just hope that I consistently lose, for a little while at least.  I’m hoping my body will let me get down to 159lbs at least with little problems, but you know it’s too much to ask for lol.  I’m still going to get on that Wii everyday,  I like it better than my scale which never moves might I add.  I’m really beginning to believe it really is  broken somehow.  I got on it today and it read 175lbs it said that 3 days ago!!  WTF!  I think I’ve dropped it one to many times while I was in one of my mad raving lunatic moods :p I remember on Easter my size 12’s (which I’ve been in for months) were getting a little to snug and tight and now they are as loose as they used to be (I can slide them off without unbuttoning them!)  I can fit into 10’s, but they are a little tight I don’t want that belly hanging over.

Oh I’m trying to be more aware of what foods make me feel like so I can stay away from them.  I’ve learned to much fiber makes my tummy hurt and I get… well we won’t go there hahaha and soup makes my tummy bloated along with many many other things which makes me sad.  I’m trying to stay away from to much sodium so I won’t get the bloat lol.  It’s easier for me to say no to things though cause I know how it will make me feel and look (about 11 months preggers! rofl) so I just walk away from it now chocolate on the other hand always makes me feel GREAT :p  I’ve been sticking to my 1,200 calorie diet for the last week and I’m going to stick at it until I can’t do it anymore then I will up it a couple hundred calories and see how it goes.  I need to get back to my 3 hour workouts though I know if I did I would really see results.  For some reason it sounds so not doable, but I did it months ago and 50 lbs heavier too so I know its totally doable!  I can do it, we can do it, lets all do it.  Get out there and exercise I mean… get your minds out of the gutters jeeze ;p

ok I sound like a crazy person in this blog can you hear the tiredness in my never endingness!?

I haven’t slept in over a day, my grandma had to stay the night at my house due to septic problems at my aunts house whom she lives with.  So with my room being the cleanest and the one with a hideaway bed it was voted (while I was at work might I add) that she would sleep in my room with guess who???  ME! YAY not…. I love my grandma with all my heart, but I knew before I even went to bed that it was going to be a rough night and I had to work today.  I asked my mom to sleep on the hideaway, but she thought it better that I did cause it would be too uncomfortable for her to sleep there so yet another… YAY not.  So I wait strike that WE went to bed at midnight she got my bed all comfy with sheets and a quilt,  I got the stupid trundle with a sheet,  boo.  I swear everytime my little eyelids would close she would move from one end of the bed to the other, and she doesn’t move very swiftly.  Once 3:30 am hit I went and got my mom and told her she had to sleep in there with her because I had to work at noon.  I went and ended up sharing my sisters twin bed with her and guess what neither of us could sleep!  She didn’t sleep cause she got burned while she was tanning so she was hurting and I was to uncomfortable.  It was a horrible night… so in conclusion out of 4 people in my house last night not one of us got one minute of sleep, not even my grandmother she never ever went to sleep!  I got home from work today which was slow :[   (I hate that cause I like to burn most of my calories there.)  and had to watch my grandma again,  she hadn’t even taken any nap so she was punch drunk acting.  When she would get up and walk she would stumble around like a crazy drunk it was kind of amusing.   So in allmy day was pleasent I’m so very tired and can’t wait to go to be, but I want to get to some of my buddies blogs.  Nighty Night! :]

I’ve started tanning and went for a wee bit too long… I’m very fair skinned, but very stubborn with gradually increasing the time in the bed.   I just start right up there at 15-20 min. and well I’m feeling the results, needless to say I will NOT be tanning today.

Yesterday was my day off and I needed to stay very active to burn all the calories needed in my day.  I went to the gym at 11am and left at 1:30pm and came home to eat my soup then I hopped on my Wii Fit for well over an hour had some fun on that then I did the Leslie Sansone 1 Mile jog.  That set a good deficit for me I really didn’t need to do anything else, but I did.  While I was watching The Biggest Loser I did various workouts with my hand weights and a few cardio things.  I’m kind of sore today and burned so I’m hurting all over the place lol.

Today I work, but slept in so I still need to workout, I decided I’m going out for a walk outside and then to the gym for a little bit.  I’ve been doing my daily Body Test on my Wii Fit which happens to weigh you as one of the tests and I’ve been consistently losing at the least a pound a day!?  I don’t know whether to believe it or not.  I do have a scale and hopped on that and they are a little off scale says 175lbs. Wii says 173lbs. today,  however I did not set a start point with my scale like I did with my Wii,  when I got on my Wii on the 10th it was at 180lbs.  but I forgot to see what my scale said so I kind of just want to use me Wii as my scale so should I  or should I use my scale?   Ok well I wish there was more time in the day or that I hadn’t slept all darn morning, I have no more internet time today,  must get out there and work it!!  I mean workout Teehee ;]

p.s. Did anybody else cry like a baby while watching BL last night!  When Mike’s brother said he was the only big one and that he felt out of place now and when Laura got the news she was injured then got on that scale and seen +3lbs.  and Jill was crying then when it came to elimination… I was crying through almost the whole episode!!

Ok so I’m doing a Relay for Life walk next month and I’m very excited to do this, but I need ideas for ways to raise money in a short amount of time.  We started a group at my work and are having a hard time getting people to walk which kind of makes me mad people won’t do this for a good cause and we have no clue how we’re going to raise money either.  I know we are going to sit outside our workplace which is a grocery store for those who haven’t caught that yet, but we need some idea of what to sell or do to get money.  My manager/group leader of the team has no clue what she is doing though.  We do the walk in our city’s park and we have to set up a tent to sit under and raise money there too.  So we need to raise money before and during the walk so we need a lot of ideas!!!  Please please if you have some idea any idea share it with me :]  I will consider every option so don’t be shy with your idea.

Thank You!!!

p.s. everything is going great it’s my day off so I need to excersize my ass off !

I think Easter sunday was a great day for me.  I told myself I wouldn’t pig out on food and stick to eating the healthy food for the main courses.  I didn’t get my enough protein in becuase my family doesn’t favor my being a vegetarian so no special food is made for me to eat on the side.  I swear everything had meat in it so it made it easy not to eat it.  Let’s see these were my food choices… Sourkraut with sausage (EEWWW!,)  Greenbeans w/bacon,  Mashed Potato’s, Butternut Squash,  Salad, Cottage Cheese,  Ham and Perogies.  I started with the salad making that cover most of my plate then I got a lot of cottage cheese and then the perogies and on a little side plate I piled on the fruit oh and I did put a scoop of mashed potato’s on my plate, but never ate them!  I LOVE mashed potato’s, but I had to practice self control and I WON!  I ate everything and went back for more cottage cheese and fruit and I never once overdid it never felt stuffed, but I was satisfied.  Oh my secret to not eating the potato’s, well it’s not a secret, but I just poured water on them so I would stop playing with them and be tempted even  more as I stared at them.  And yes I drank water all day not one ounce of alchohol.  I hopped on my Wii fit this morning and it said I was up 0.7 lbs… that could be because I did come home at 1 am and there were some leftovers my mother brought home, she goes to someone elses house and I go to my fathers side of the family every holiday, so she brings home food I didn’t get to eat where I was and I didn’t eat any of that either go me :]  This is where my self control was lost I got home at 1 am and ate a whole ziploc bag of fruit!  Haha if I was made up of any type of food it would be fruit.  Lets see I probably ate 6 cups or more of fruit yesterday because I was snacking on it all day to instead of all the cheese and crackers or candy that were out, yes I did have 2 crackers and a slice of cheese, but I’m looking at it as getting some of my protein in lol and I stopped myself after that and it wasn’t hard.  Oh and you know how I said I counted out 10 chocolate eggs to eat I ate 8 of them and that was all I chewed countless pieces of gum instead you should have seen how many wrappers I pulled out of my purse at the end of the night… oh and I have had a caramel filled cadbury egg in my freezer for weeks now waiting for Easter to come and I didn’t eat that either.  Gosh I am amazing myself these past few days.

The one thing I hated though was that I couldn’t find anything to wear and ended up going with a nice bacl and white shirt that couldn’t hide my Bodybugg and EVERYONE was asking what it was.  It got annoying because they would then ask what I do and how I do it so it feels like all I talked about was my loosing weight and now I feel like they think I’m obsessed.   my stepmother was talking to me about how she wants to lose weight, she currently goes to curves and has been for at the least 3 years, however she recently has said she let herself go and gained 10 lbs.  When she started going to curves 3 years ago they put her on a high protein diet and she kept losing weight left and right until she got down to 127 lbs and she said that since then she has gained about 10 lbs and wants to go back on it and get back down to that weight.  She is such a tiny woman always has been she probably weighed in the 130’s when she started going there 3 years ago, but it showed me that no matter what you weigh you wil probably never be really happy.  It was weird for me to sit there and listen to her talk about how she needs to loose weight cause she is so tiny, but it was very interesting.  She has a book from curves that tells you how to lose weight and little tricks so she said she was going to let me read it.  Part of it was something like when you first start it you eat 1,200 cal for a week and that jumpstarts it then you go to 1,600 until you stop seeing results, or you get sick of dieting and when you reach that they reccomend you maintain again for a while then start it over again.  It sounds pretty instersting.  Well I REALLY need to hit the gym I haven’t been there in weeks and I still have to work today.   

Wow I had a lot to say if you read it all kudos to you give yourself a pat on the back ;]

Happy Easter everyone!!!!

I was here a couple days ago and read a lot of blogs, but I couldn’t post any comments!!   my computer was “acting up” again.  It made me mad, but I just had to breath and get up and walk away.  I couldn’t get on yesterday way to busy with work and pre Easter things.  I gave my godson his easter basket and he loved it.  I should have taken a pic of it, but I forgot.  Last year it was a themed basket with all blue and green things in it nothing else and my sisters was all Japanese themed things.  This year his was all Cars themed and hers was all Twilight.  I like making things themed and matching… call me silly.   He loved i!  He had one thing of candy in it, the classic easter bunny and it was a very tiny bunny that way it’s better for his body and teeth (which he has a problem with) and he likes toys better anyways… it’s a win win situation.  My basket looks pathetic this year and I’m ok with that.  I am making today my high calorie day I counted out 5 Reese’s eggs (little ones) and 5 Butterfinger eggs so those are my treats that way I know I get my chocolate fix and I am not overdoing it.  I am going to stay away from some of the bad foods (not all) I’m not eating any white flour or starches and loading up on that salad.  Ok wait I guess I’ll be eating 2 perogies because I only get them on the holidays and it’s only 2 so I will be taking in some white flour, but you would too if you ate our homemade perogies :]  Well I have got to go get ready and shower for my half hour trip to my family’s house…. I hate driving that long I get tired after driving any further than 15 minutes.  How horrible is that I don’t know why either I call myself Miss Sleepy Head :p

Oh and I have been doing great I gained some weight when I was gone what 4 pounds so I was back up to 174 lbs.  then Tom came and I got on my Wii fit a few days ago and he said I gained another lb so I was at 175.   I got on my Wii fit for the body test again it said I was 180 Holy Cow!  I actually didn’t freak out I know it’s not good to weigh when Toms here, but I needed a new start point so I went with the 180.   So yesterday I was down to 178-177 so that was a 2 lb loss then today I got on it and I was down another lb so it read 176!  yays!!  I have been diligently measuring, weighing and logging my calories and haven’t worked out at all because I’ve been working my ass off at work so there hasn’t been a need to.  Next week I don’t work everyday only 5 days so I will be hitting that gym and I can’t wait :]